six: nobody said it would be easy

Song: The Scientist, Coldplay


Anna had already woken up from passing out. I made sure she was alright, I think she was more overtired than anything. I gave her something to eat and she was out like a light back on the couch.

“It hasn’t even been a week and I’m already wiped because of this” I sighed leaning against the kitchen counter.

“I know”

“She loves him, but refuses to admit it”

“I just wish they could have a civilized conversation”

“It’s Anna, Carey…”

“Good point”

At that moment I felt sick to my stomach. I wrapped my arm around me and leaned forward slightly.

“You ok?” he asked.

“I think this stress is getting to me” I sighed, “I’m going to go to bed early”

I walked into my bedroom, this sickness feeling worse and worse. I changed to a pair of sweats and a t-shirt and threw my hair up into a ponytail. I went into the bathroom, took a look in the mirror and looked extremely pale. Then it hit me, I stood over the toilet, and well, it was not pretty.

After a few minutes I brushed my teeth a few times, crawled into bed and threw the covers over my head. I felt the bed dip down and the covers pull back, seeing Carey.

“You ok?”

“Not bad, I have a feeling this stress is getting to me, more than I thought it would”

He put his hand on my forehead and cheeks and just his touch gave me goosebumps. Even after all this time we’ve been together.

“You’re not warm” he replied, “just get some sleep, I’m sure you’ll be fine in the morning”

“I hope so” I sighed.

He just placed a gentle kiss on my lips and I immediately felt better, “thanks” I smirked.

“Go to sleep” he replied.

He shut off the light, closed the door slightly behind him and it was only a few minutes before I felt my eyelids get heavy and I fell asleep.

--

I woke up feeling that same sick stomach I had felt the previous night. I jumped out of bed and hugged the toilet for another few minutes. I brushed my teeth and felt slightly better. I went out into the living room to see Anna already up.

“You feeling better?” I asked her.

“Other than a broken heart, I’ll be fine”

“I’m sorry sweetie. From what I witnessed he’s not worth it”

“Yah, I figured. But how are you? I heard you last night, didn’t sound good this morning either”

“I’m not too bad, I’m just a bit stressed out”

“You sure that’s all it is Jules?” she asked.

“Why, what else would it be?”

“When was the last time you had your period?”

I thought back but couldn’t come up with an answer.

“If you have to think back that far, it can only be one thing”

“I can’t be…”

“What else would it be Jules?”

“Carey can’t do this right now, his career is just--”

“Don’t start with that, I don’t want you guys to end up like Ryan and I just because of his career. Just take a test, and then tell him…”

“Fine, I will go to the drug store later, while Carey is at practice…”

“Good girl”

Anna still has her personality that’s for sure. I made breakfast, but didn’t eat much. I was careful until I knew if I really could be pregnant. I watched as Carey left for practice and took a quick shower before leaving for the drug store. One test could change my entire life.

I sat on the edge of the bathtub, staring at the test, waiting to see the result. I was terrified to be honest, I just had no idea how Carey would react if this ended up positive. My mind raced with all these possibilities, while I prayed that it was negative. I just couldn’t deal with a pregnancy right now.

I heard it finish and I hesitated before looking. Dashing my hopes, it ended up positive. Now I had to figure out when and how to tell Carey, and hope this all ends well.