eight: you're too in love to let it go;

song: Fix You, Coldplay

We got back to my apartment and I was fuming. I can’t believe what she’s done. Dying her hair and piercing her face is one thing, but smoking pot, you had to draw the line somewhere.

I paced the apartment, as she sat on the couch watching me move back and forth. Damn that hair was bright.

“I just can’t believe you!”

“What!?”

“You know what!”

She didn’t reply and I felt like I was going to burst. It’s been less than a week and my life has become chaotic. I’m pregnant, Anna has been harder to handle than a five year old, and work, well, I won’t even go there. I didn’t know what to say to her anymore. She wasn’t listening to us clearly. Ryan was the only one she listened to, but now it doesn’t look like anyone can tell her anything.

She was bouncy while I sat and watched her every move. I was waiting for her to sober up. She eventually started to slow down and ended up on the couch beside me, mumbling something I really wasn’t paying attention to. I heard the door open, hoping it wasn’t her trying to escape. It was actually Carey coming in.

“Thank God” I sighed standing up.

“What happened?”

I grabbed his arm and pulled him towards the kitchen, out of Anna’s earshot, “other than the fucking hair, she was high at the game”

“What!?”

“Carey, I really am getting tired of this. I love her, but I don’t know what to do anymore” I felt my eyes brimming with tears and he just wrapped his arms around me, “I’m tired…”

“This will get sorted out, I promise” he said soothingly and kissing the top of my head.

“We need to try talking to her, one more time” I sighed.

“We can give it a shot, but anymore of this and I will go and bring Ryan back here myself”

I just chuckled, “let’s just hope that doesn’t happen”

We went back into the living room and Anna looked a bit better than before. A bit calmer. We both just stood in front of her, and she looked up at us.

“I know you’re mad at me”

“I don’t think you understand how this affects us as much as you” Carey said.

“You’re not the one who got kicked out”

“But it doesn’t mean you can throw your life away like that Anna!” I exclaimed, “You’re drinking, smoking pot, cutting your hair! We gave you a place to stay, we are not your babysitters, you have to have some self - control”

“Wow” was all Carey said.

Anna just looked at me, disappointed, upset, hurt. I didn’t know how else to get through to her. If she doesn’t see the light, I can’t help her anymore.

“If you can’t see the light Anna…I’m done with this, you’re on your own”

I left the room, with Carey not too far behind me. I sat on the edge of the bed and he just sat beside me. He just intertwined his fingers with mine and didn’t say a word.

“Damn, I forgot to ask how your game went” I said.

“We won” he simply said, “3-1”

“That’s amazing” I smiled squeezing his hand, “why aren’t you out with the guys?”

“Because I knew something was up here when I checked my phone”

“Oh…”

“Are you ok? Something else is going on. I know you”

I contemplated telling him, but seeing that he won, I just didn’t know if I could. What if he was unhappy about it. I mean, even I wasn’t thrilled. I knew someday that I would have a family with Carey, but I just didn’t think this was the time. I thought we’d be married before this even happened. I just can’t tell him right now…I can’t.

“I’m just over tired, this whole thing is really getting to me”

He looked at me for a long moment before leaning in to kiss the top of my head, “if you’re sure”

“Thanks for your concern, but I promise I’m fine”

He just kissed my cheek before standing up, “you going to bed?”

I just nodded, “alright, night. I love you”

“I love you too”